Down by 12

I have 15 days until my surgery and I'm down 12lbs. Another 1.5 and I'm clear for lift off!!!!! If I go over the 13.5lbs just means my recovery may go smoother, or so I hope. I think the queasy stomach for the past week has helped with losing a few pounds, if you don't feel like eating, you won't eat.

My future used to seem so gray in my eyes. Being overweight can make you avoid having fun because of how you look and how others will look at you. You don't want to go to any function that is near water cause then people will ask why you aren't swimming. How do you explain to someone that you don't feel like showing off your fat ass for the whole world to see??? If I have to hear "No one cares how you look, they just want you to be happy" one more time, I'm gonna slap someone. If you're skinny, just don't talk to me and try to relate, you never will.

Things I'm going to miss......
Having a drink with my meal.
That's all, not any one type of food cause I can, for the most part, still eat everything I was able to eat prior to my surgery. The surgery will just limit my food intake and because of the little amount of food I'll be taking in, I need to make those meals count. No soda since they have so many empty calories. No deep fried foods, they have so much fat it makes my head spin. Not as much pasta or bread, LOTS OF CARBS!!!!!! I do feel like I'll be wasting a lot of food from here on out. Ken and I DO NOT have the same taste in food so if we ever go out to dinner, I'll either have to order off the kids menu or try to order something that I can take home and make 2-3 more meals out of. I'll probably end up throwing most of those meals out since I'm not the biggest fan of left overs.